more sitting here...

sigh,
as i do in relief now...
want me near she says...
as I ponder what that entails
I sit here,
as I sat the day before.
thinking about you.
the song peaks to me
the same way your eyes do.
the way I've never seen them move
but know for sure they are alive and lively
sparking
shimmering
like the glossy
glowing aura that surrounds your personality.
In lust with your body,
haven't quenched my thirst for your mind
feel connected to your spirit

hang on harley babe. .. if i can call you harley that is.
i have to blog real quick...

SO FOR A VERY LONG TIME I'VE BELIEVED IN FATE.
IN FACT, I'VE LIVED BY IT.
IF THIS HAPPENS THIS, ETC.
IN MY TIME I'VE SEEN HOW THAT BOTH HELPS AND HURTS ME IN MY EVER VIGILANT RACE TO MAKE AN ADDITION.
EVER SINCE I COMPLETED ME, I'VE BEEN INTERESTED IN ADDING ANOTHER COMPLETED SOUL TO BUILD SOMETHING MORE THAN THIS WORLD.
BUT IF NOTHING ELSE, IN MATTERS OF THE HEART HAVE ALWAYS FOLLOWED THE PATH OF FATE
WHEN THE EX WAS TRIPPING FATE TOLD ME MORE THAN I SAW WITH MY LOVE TINTED GLASSES.
BETWEEN DREAMS CONVERSATIONS AND MORE I'VE FOUND THAT THIS WOMAN IS WHAT I WANT. WHATS MORE WHAT I NEED. ALL THESE FEELINGS I FEEL, THE CONNECTION, THE WAY I FEEL LIKE I'VE KNOWN HER SINCE THE DAY I WAS BORN, IS BECAUSE ITS FATE.
ALAS NOW COMES THE HARD PART. ALONG WITH THE REVELATION OF A FATEFUL EVENT ONE MUST THEN PREPARE FOR THE HARDSHIP THAT MUST BE OVERCOME...
MEANT TO BE.
A STATEMENT MADE MOST TO DESCRIBE AN ACT MANIPULATED BY A DEITY.
MEANT TO BE. I BELIEVE IT,
AND EVEN THOUGHT HER THOUGHTS ARE CLOSER TO BELIEVING THEN I COULD EVEN ASK FOR...
WILL SHE BELIEVE?

ok so back to the poem...

waiting to think of you as mine....

SITTING HERE...

I SIT HERE,
STILL AWAKE,
CANT SLEEP,
YET IF MY EYES COULD WINK
A QUICK 40 TIMES
I'D WILL MYSELF TO KEEP THEM OPEN.
I SIT HERE WILLING YOU TO FEEL MY ARMS
ENCLOSING YOU
IN
THE SAFEST
TIGHTEST YET MOST GENTLE
ENDLESS
TIMELESS
EMBRACE YOU'LL EVER FEEL.
I SIT HERE
BEING TRUE,
IF MY PART IS THAT SMALL
YET BIG
I DO SO OFTEN, EARLY AND CONTINUOUS...
STRETCHING MY VERY MIND TO WRAP AROUND EVERYTHING I KNOW
SO FAR,
AND HOPING THAT THE STATEMENT
"I'D MARRY YOU NOW,
AND SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE FINDING OUT THE SMALL STUFF!"
WHILE TRUE,
DOESN'T MAKE YOU TURN TALE AND RUN...

ALL I WANNA DO....

THE WEEK ENDS THE WORST
WHEN I WANNA RAW OUT THE MOST
FEEL LIKE TAKING A RIDE AND MAKING SURE I CLIP A PEDESTRIAN
CUZ THEY OBVIOUSLY DON'T CARE
CONSIDERING THEY HAVE NO SIDEWALKS
SOMEDAYS I WALK OUT THE FRONT DOOR HOPING THAT THE FIRST THING
I SEE
IS A MURDEROUS MOB
ON A RAMPAGE OF LOOTING AND KILLING
SO I CAN THROW MYSELF INTO THE THRONG
MOST DAYS?
I WISH A GIANT METEOR WAS ON IT'S WAY TO COLLIDE WITH THE EARTH,
LEAVING MERE WEEKS TO LIVE FOR ALL OUR PLANETS INHABITANTS,
JUST SO GOING OUT FRONT AND RAWING
FROM THE FRONT STEP TO WHERE EVER
HOWEVER FAR I GET BEFORE CAPTURED
OR KILLED
LIKE WHY CANT U WALK OUTSIDE AND SLAP THE FIRST LAME YOU SEE
AM I WRONG AND IT'S NOT AMUSING TO FILM
HOMELESS BUMS FIGHTING
FOR THE 5 BUCKS YOU OFFERED BEFORE
YOU STARTED FILMING....
IS IT A BAD THING THAT THE SPILLING OF BLOOD
REAL, IMAGINED, OR HOLLYWOOD
MAKES ME SMILE?
AND IF IT IS WHY?

cuz all i wanna do...

CAN I CALL THIS THE RAMBLINGS OF A MAN TORN BETWEEN HAPPY AN PATIENT?

WITH A SLIGHT TWIST... HAVEN'T KNOWN YOU AS LONG...
AND AS I FILL UP MY LATE NIGHTS WITH
HUG ATTACKS
AND IDLE
YET MOST TIMES STIMULATING CONVERSATIONS
I FIND MYSELF PERUSING WHO YOU TALK TO
NOT INTERESTED IN BARRING YOUR LIGHT FROM OTHERS
YET
INSANELY JEALOUS.
A CHANCE I'M FULLY PREPARED TO EARN IS ALL I'M ASKING.
AS YOU SIT IN THE OTHER SIDE OF MY IM WINDOW,
I GLANCE AT YOUR PAGE,
THE INSPIRATION TO BE FRIENDLY HEARTED
WRITTEN ACROSS YOUR FACE AS DEEPLY SCRIBED
AS THE POEMS I CRAFT IN EXPLANATION OF MY FEELINGS ON MY
CHOICE TO REMAIN SINGLE.
HOLDING ON,
THE PARANOIA,
TELLING ME I'M NOT THERE.
FEAR TELLING ME,
I JUST WANNA STOP LOOKING,
AND I'M SUBCONSCIOUSLY
PUSHING TOWARD A PREMATURE END OF MY SEARCH.
YET
WHEN PONDERING CORROBORATING EVIDENCE OF YOU NOT BEING AS I VIEW YOU,
I COME UP EMPTY,
AS EMPTY AS MY HEART IS FULL.
FULL OF FUNNY LIL STORIES AND ROOM.
ROOM FOR YOU TO RESIDE RENT FREE,
WITH NO WORRY OR CONCERN.
NOT EVEN ASKING THAT YOU TAKE UR SHOES OFF,
AS YOU GET COMFORTABLE I ENVISION A FEW POKES IN THE AORTA,
LOOKING FORWARD TO THEM,
AND ALL THE MEMORIES I PRAY,
OPEN HEARTED,
THAT I'M BLESSED/ALLOWED
TO BE A PART OF
AND CREATE.
QUITE THE STATEMENT,
YET THE TRUTH IN IT
SCREAMS ACCEPT US FROM THE STREET AS MY HEART STANDS ON THE ROOF LOSING IT'S FOOTING.
SAFETY SOUGHT.
SEEKING
THINKING
DEBATING THE DRINKING
AND SMOKING
JOKING
YET WITH ALL THE SERIOUSNESS AND TRUTH
SOMETIMES ATTRIBUTED WITH JEST.
I WANNA BE...

STILL WAITING IN LINE....

HERE I AM,
BUT WHERE ARE YOU?
ARE YOU STREWN AMONG THE WOMEN I'VE WRONGED,
HURT,
BY ME DOING NO MORE THAN BEING MYSELF?
ARE YOU THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY?
HIDDEN AMONG THOSE I WAS RUDE TO,
FOR NO MORE THAN THEM BEING THERE SELVES.
ARE YOU AMONG THE TRULY ENAMORED OF ME,
YET MY REFUSAL TO GO BACKWARDS KEEPS A BARRIER BETWEEN US?
WHAT THEN?
LOWER STANDARDS TO MEET THE SILENCE
HEAD ON?
FORCE
US
TOGETHER?
CREATE A PERSONA JUST FOR THE SAKE OF LOVE?
THEN ONCE CREATED USE IT TO TRICK ANOTHER INTO LOVING THE MIRAGE?
NOT TO MENTION THE LIE CONSISTENTLY TOLD TO MYSELF THAT THIS IS A FIT.
A
MATE
FOR
MY
SOUL.
IS IT EVEN SAFE TO IMAGINE?

A LIMERICK FOR YOU...

THE MARVELOUS LOVE OF A SISTER,
LARGELY MATCHING HOW MUCH I MISS HER.
WAITING FOR HER TO COME HOME,
ALL FEELING ALONE.
THE MARVELOUS LOVE OF A SISTER.

IS

SO I MET THIS GIRL.
WOMAN.
SHE MAKES ME SMILE!
FROM SILLYNESS
WHEN NEEDED
TO
HUG ATTACKS WHERE THEY APPLY

HAVEN'T BLOGGED HERE IN A MINUTE
SINCE THE END OF LAST MONTH
THEN STILL TORN APART
IN THE LAST LEGS OF THIS EVOLUTION
DOPE BOY
TO
GROWN DOPE BOY
TO
JUST PLAIN GROWN UP.....

THE FAITHFUL KNOW I SIGH HERE.
TODAY
A SIGH OF RELIEF
FOR SHE'S MARVELOUS
NO AMAZING
TO A POINT BEYOND BELIEF!

KNOWS WHO SHE IS AND IS COMFORTABLE THERE
LIKE IN YOUR FAVORITE UNDER WEAR
AND I LIKE HER.
IT'S A LOVELY DAY.