STILL WAITING IN LINE....

HERE I AM,
BUT WHERE ARE YOU?
ARE YOU STREWN AMONG THE WOMEN I'VE WRONGED,
HURT,
BY ME DOING NO MORE THAN BEING MYSELF?
ARE YOU THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY?
HIDDEN AMONG THOSE I WAS RUDE TO,
FOR NO MORE THAN THEM BEING THERE SELVES.
ARE YOU AMONG THE TRULY ENAMORED OF ME,
YET MY REFUSAL TO GO BACKWARDS KEEPS A BARRIER BETWEEN US?
WHAT THEN?
LOWER STANDARDS TO MEET THE SILENCE
HEAD ON?
FORCE
US
TOGETHER?
CREATE A PERSONA JUST FOR THE SAKE OF LOVE?
THEN ONCE CREATED USE IT TO TRICK ANOTHER INTO LOVING THE MIRAGE?
NOT TO MENTION THE LIE CONSISTENTLY TOLD TO MYSELF THAT THIS IS A FIT.
A
MATE
FOR
MY
SOUL.
IS IT EVEN SAFE TO IMAGINE?